When I was young the sounds around me were louder and stronger and firm. I didn’t know the voice of truth, that still small voice of my own. I looked around and gathered data everywhere I went. Trying to make sense of the world, unfolding bit by bit. Always wanting stillness but never knowing its name. Learning to react to chaos with skills so crafty and quick. I learned to shrink and hide and freeze like a magical disappearing trick. This way of being in the world kept me safe for a while. It was familiar and brought comfort, but with time it went out of style. I began to learn a different way, a way of strength and presence. Every fiber in my being resisted the change and for a time, I let it. Fear and confusion, terror and shame fighting to keep me small. Two worlds within colliding and battling to take it all.
Then one day, I found my seat and learned to just be still. The storms inside subsided and answers began to swell. A new voice started rising up from the center of my soul. This voice asked me a question, “will you please let go?”
Surrender to this moment
Let the sweetness come
Learn to ride the waves
Bask in the glorious sun
There is a light within;
A teacher and a guide
Once you finally find it
You never have to hide
Make the light your focal point
Stay anchored in its power
Open to receive the gift
With every passing hour
Nothing is ever wasted, though it often seems to be. The broken bits within, create the backdrop of the tapestry. Like a mosaic, all these pieces are making something beautiful for the world to see. You are meant to return home to the radiant light within. Once you embrace the suffering, an excellent adventure can begin. It starts within the stillness and the quiet of your soul. It grows with every breath you take and brokenness becomes whole. Moment by moment, breath by breath, integration happening. Add a little movement and connect to mystery. Moving prayer, sacred dance, body, mind and soul. Repetition and wonder keep this momentum going with the flow. This practice is a way of life that illuminates the journey. Return at any moment and trust this mystery. Lose your way, begin again with every breath you breathe.