When we first met during my travels in Thailand, I never expected you would change my life the way you did. I know, it hasn’t always been easy, and I sometimes (often) take you for granted. But if there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that you’ll always be there for me with open arms.
When I didn’t know you very well I actually played hard to get. Do you remember that? What kept me coming back to you in those early days, were your promises and my intentions for an open heart and stillness in a world swirling with activity.
You quickly became my refuge.
You taught me to see clearly, things I don’t normally see because I’m distracted, hiding or running from them. You show me that when I slow down enough, the things I think matter fall away, and what is revealed is how my mind functions and how my heart responds.
You gently remind me how I take so much of this amazing life for granted. Everyday things like the breath or being able to walk, are gifts that I tend to forget when I’m wrapped up in my own world. Yet when we sit together, in your presence I remember that they are indeed precious, and I don’t need to wait for an illness that threatens to take them away to remind me.
Despite my occasional mood swings, you let me be and tell me to live this life fully that is unfolding with all of its disappointments and surprises. With you, I begin to believe that I’m worthy and that no part of me deserves to be left outside the door.
With your help, I see that accepting who I am in this moment is a radical act of healing that is my birthright and that no matter how many people tell me they love and accept me, only I have the capacity to free myself of false beliefs right here in this moment.
I relish the moments of pure love you surprise me with – such a simple love that is the result of just paying attention and not wishing this moment was different in any way.
With your unwavering presence in my life, my mind is flexible, stable, and calm, and my heart is open, soft, resilient, curious.
Thank you. Just… Thank you.