God. A white man with a long white beard who lives on a cloud? Some presence to be feared, that is always checking up on you?
Growing up, I was drawn to Church. I liked the idea of something bigger than me on which I could rely to guide me in my life. Each time I sought to find this in religion, I was sorely disappointed. I once had an out-of-body experience and was told that the Church doesn’t believe in things like that. They dismissed me without any explanation. Each time I felt I was moving towards something much greater than me, I was met with some disapproval for my ideas or my feelings. Slowly, the Church and my idea of God became tainted and something to not share with others. It seemed God was only accessible to a few.
Then I found Yoga. Yoga is not a religion but a spiritual practice. It originated in the East and as such has many Hindu, Sikh and Buddhist practices which makes it so beautiful. It doesn’t tell you what to think, it doesn’t tell you which God is right or which religion is the best. It accepts all with an open and loving heart.
Recently, I have been drawn to Kundalini Yoga after Elena suggested that we listen to Space Weather Transmissions. I was listening to the Jaap Sahib as instructed by Paramatma Siri Sadhana, and I started to reflect on my Summer. I have welcomed fifty people to live and practice yoga with me and my family. Most people appreciate and enjoy the experience. Once in a while, however, I meet someone who doesn’t. They write a scathing review once away from my home, which really hurts my open heart.
Even though I felt hurt by these few, I realised that I had seen God in each of them even if it was just for a split second – when we connected over a mutual teacher, in the water after catching a wave or when I offered a hug upon leaving. The light of God shined in their eyes. My mind began to question this, “What do you mean, you think you can see God in everyone, it’s not possible, remember that man who was shouting at you when you were holding your newborn baby in your arms?” I recalled the incident and with it the moment when he reached out and touched my daughter’s arm. I saw God in him.
The true realization of what God is hit me in all its gloriousness.
The light, the love that you can find in every single person’s eyes. I have never felt such a profound sense of connection to everyone. At this moment I knew we are all one. There is no God outside of us, God is within each and every one of us. Some people find it so hard to allow their God to be seen because of fear but if you look carefully you will see God shining within them.
And so now I’m living for the God in every single moment.