Every conversation starts the same way. ”Hi, how are you doing today?” and without even thinking, the majority of us respond with a generic response “Great, how are you?” and the cycle continues. “Great.” Wait a minute, are we really doing “great?”
It’s not in my nature to be anything but positive and supportive, but I am tired of always choosing to be the positive light. Why am I always trying to live up to some expectation that everything is just happy and perfect? Am I letting anyone down if I don’t show up radiating and smiling?
I put a lot of pressure on myself to constantly be the positive one. But there’s something I am neglecting when I only openly express the positive things in my life.
Today, I am myself, fully, embracing both the positive and negative sides of my emotions. That darkness points to my humanity. Embracing this darkness, my body becomes magnetic. More real.
I embrace this darkness by allowing myself to have an off day. And sitting with those hard emotions that I am feeling today. Knowing that tomorrow will be different. And understanding that today, this is where I am at and this is what I need to work through. I practice forgiveness. I retreat to personal space. I let go. This is what makes me whole.